I cannot even recall the last time I blogged.  It has been uncomfortably long enough that I removed my blog link on my email signature.  The constant reminder that I had not written one word felt like a pebble in my shoe, I needed to get rid of it.  

There is a correlation between my silence here and my heart.  So many thoughts have been bouncing around in my soul and I have found myself unable to reign them in.  Perhaps I am experiencing what St. John of the Cross spoke of..."the dark night of the soul."  Lest I give the impression that I am in a pit of despair, I am not.  However, I do believe God is exposing my heart and bringing me to a new awareness of who he is and what it means for me to truly follow him as the disciples did.  I am at cross hairs with God's truth and how that truth is seen in my life.  My heart yearns for what God offers.